My missions were failed. And now i am wasting my life in this stupid case. I think that i can not make it . And further more if i make it what can be dine after that? My way was gone since i lied when i was 5 years old. I am kind of man made product which has many problems. I lost. Yes i massed up every details. There would be no recover or something like that. My brain works not as good as every other wise people. Cause i am a mad man. I really do not know who should be blamed. Probably it will be myself. Yes. It was me all the time . But what could be done by me? Helpless creature would better be vanished. See you all after some days gone.