i sat there a very long time in the silence until i began to think i might never rise from that bed or come out of that gray light,ㄱ) so i pushed myself to my feet. i eased off my sneakers and pushed the rug aside so i could have some polished floor, then i pulled the door shut.
ㄱ)이하부터가 해석이 잘 안됩니다. 내자신을 내 발에 밀어 너었다는 것을 어떻게 해석하죠??