저 몇달전에 갑자기 용기가 솟아나서 단단히 마음먹고 술도 잔뜩 마시고 유서도 써놓고 완벽하게 자살준비가 끝났었는데 막상 진짜 자살하려는 순간에 급똥이 마려워서 똥 싸고 자살해야지 했는데 똥 다 싸니까 자괴감도 들고 김도 다 새서 자살준비 해둔거 주섬주섬 다 치워버린적이 있어요 아직도 그 생각이 가끔 나요 그때 똥이 안 마려웠다면 성공했을텐데 하고 아쉬워요