it'll just be a sigh of my life. Today,i feel like suiciding myself. because of my family's problems. Money... what the hell what money is! i'm really down about it. i'm living in country. my father's occupation is farming. and we have a lot of loan. we can't repay the loan. because we don't have enough money. Fucking social! my father tried his best. In the summer, he woke up at 6'o clock and went to bed by 11'o clock. Nevertheless, we didn't get enough money. vegetables prices are very low. what a pity. he said his head is about to break due to thinking of repayment. so he always go on the gamble nowdays. that drives my mother crazy. i tried to study hard. so i entered renowned university. but it doesn't even matter. i want to get along with my parents. i cry when i'm thinking about my mom. hah...New year's day is awful to me. i should have stayed at my friend's house.