이제 일병4개월차이인데 문득후회가급밀려오네여 
친구들은 다놀고잇으니 조금만늦게올껄그랫나 싶기도하고 선임들이주는눈치가 꼭필요한눈치인가 의문도갖고 내가선임되면 그눈치주는게  괜한피해의식을가지고잇는건가 어떻게생각할지도 궁금하고 여기서 조금이라도 얻어서 나가는게잇을지 의문이고 많이남앗는대 잘버틸수잇을지 자신도없고  진짜아닌거같아도 선임이시키는거면 걍 해야하는건지 내가머하고잇는건지 선임한테 웃어주는것도 지겹네여 흑흑주절주절