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그립고 아련하고 죽고 싶지 않으면서 의욕 넘치고 싶고 낭만적이고 싶다가 모든게 귀찮기도 하면서 눈물이 글써일것 같으면서도 무섭기도 하고 즐거운 것 같으면서도 외로운 기분이 들려다가도 희망적이고 비젼이 보일듯 하다가 고맙기도 하고 미안하기도 하고 대견스럽다가도 후회도 들고 무언가 북받쳐오르다가 감각이 무뎌진 기분에 뭐든 그냥 그렇고 거기서 거기인것 같은 느낌