난 잘난게 하나도 없습니다 근데 연얘는 하고싶었습니다 이게 참 마음 아픕니다 여자친구 만들어보겠다고 모든 신경을 항상 곤두세워도 나만 힘들더라고요 이젠 혼자라도 멋지게 살아볼까 생각중입니다 무언가를 소유한다는건 참 힘들고 무서운거같아요 무언가를 가지게되면 익숙해지기 마련이라는데 제가 첫인상 에 가면을 쓰려고해서 그런건지 편해지지도 않고 어느정도 지나도 나다운 나 그 자체를 보여주지도 못하는거같아요 가리기 바빠서 말이죠..이러기 싫습니다 이제는 여자보기를 돌같이 하려합니다 왜 내가 잘보여야되는건지 왜 내가 뭘 하더라도 항상 긴장하고 잘보여야겠다는 느낌이 드는지 모르겠어요