지금은 순간적인 감정일수있지만 다시생각해줬으면좋겠어 권태기라는게 다그런거야 하지만 권태기만넘기면 우리 다시 예전처럼 돌아갈수있을꺼라고생각해 나는 기다려줄수있는데. 내가 얼마나많이 참았는데 제발 다시한번만 다시생각해주면안될까? 난 아직 너없으면 아무것도못해 이기적이지만 날봐서라도 그간의 정을봐서라도 우리다시 만날수없을까? 눈물이 멈추질않아.. 난 잘해줄수있어 진짜로 어제 친구일도 미안해 나도 너무 예민해진것같아 나한테 연락 꼬박꼬박 안해줘도되고 신경안써줘도되 우리 진짜 다시 만날수없는거야? 너무 억울해 이대로 끝내기가.. 진짜 난 너만보며살았는데 너한텐 얘기안했지만 어제도 다른사람한테 요즘 너무 미치도록 힘들지만 난 걔아니면 절대안될것같은데 얘랑 헤어지는날엔 내가뭘할지 어떻게될지 나도날모르겠다고했는데 그상상만으로도 우울해지고 미치도록 힘들고 손떨리고 그간 많이 울기도했어 진짜 안될까 시합끝나고 대답해줘도도좋아 기다릴께 그러니까 우리 이러지말자 응?너가그랬잖아 서로힘들어도 다시 잡아주자고 이런일로 헤어지지말자고 정말 난 너없이 못살아 진짜 너무힘들어 그런데 널 놓을수가없어 도저히.. 다시한번생각해줘. 아니 수천번도 더생각해주면안될까? 나는 내 여자친구라는것만으로 잘견뎌왔는데 너의존재만으로 힘들때마다 더 힘을냈는데 널잃을까봐 한마디한마디를 다시생각하던나인데 너의페메하나를 보고도 너무늦게답장하는거아닌가 페메온시간부터 확인하던나인데 하루는 너없이살아보려고 일부로 너생각도안하고 살아보려고했는데 무엇을하던간에 어떤걸봐도 밥을먹을때에도 어떤노랠들어도  어딜가던지 너생각밖에안나더라 알바를해도 혼날껄알면서도 너에게 페메가오진않았는지 수시로 확인도하면서.. 너가 이렇게된것도 내탓인것같아 미안해 내가 잘해주지못해서 이런말하게만들어서 미안해 .. 정말미안해...앞으로 이런말나오지않게 내가잘할께 정말 내가잘할께 그러니까 우리 이렇게 헤어지지말자 부탁이야 정말 잘할게.. 많을걸 바라는게아니야 그냥 내여자친구로 있어줘 권태기라는게 원래 그런거잖아.. 서로를 어느정도알아서 이젠 단점도보이게되는거 그래서 더 밀어내게되는거잖아 난 너의 단점만보고도 살수있어 진짜야 내입장도 고려해줘.. 항상 미안한일만있어도되 난 다이해할수있어 근데 우리헤어지는건 도저히 이해할수가없어 이젠 나도내가 너없이 어떻게지낼지도모르겠고 나혼자 어떻게살아가야할지도 모르겠어 나 진짜 어떻게해야하는거야? 잘넘길수있을줄알았어 아니 잘넘기고싶어 조금만 더 버텨주면안될까? 그기간동안 너가 마음돌릴수있도록 잘할께 정말 잘할자신있어 진짜잘할게 이때까지보다도 몇배는 잘할께 우리 정말 이러지말자 날두고가지마..
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